I've always been a timid girl, had a big dream, I thought that dreams were not for me, because it would be unable to realize them. I thought that my future was traced without major events.
Until one day passing in front of the TV I saw a boy band singing a song very cool, really liked it, but I let it go. The next day at school my friends just talked to them as the Backstreet Boys and one of them gave me a picture of one, by the way is my great love BRIAN, fate was on my vida.Nem you imagine what would happen. Since then I never failed to keep up, took the letters and even unable to speak English rolled (very funny). I remember my friends and I had no money to buy material we gathered and shared, who came from the Bee was mine, one of Nick and Kevin from another, and when he came from a favorite photo of one side and the other the other was a fight lol.
I can not explain what I feel, is too crazy, just know say that fills me so I am happy. How can you explain a love so great for guys who never spoke, never hugged or exchanged confidences??
Sometimes when I feel sad just listening to music that I feel better already, is a power over me that beyond my strength.
He had just won a dream even without believing he could accomplish, a goal for my life: Go to a Backstreet Boys show! But how? Only God knows.
It is unexplained what you make me feel good and bad too.
Brian is admitted for heart surgery. Damn, that hurt me so that I feel today. That sense of despair, as the news came too late to me. Do not know what to think, what to do, the only thing I did was pray and pray every night. Early with all asleep in oukman would hear the tape he had recorded, wept quietly as he arrived and the parts of Brian screamed in thought: You take care of it for me, makes sure nothing bad happens, I cried myself to sleep. Thank God everything worked. Thank God! The news of his recovery left me more than happy.
One of the saddest news in my life: AJ and drug use! Yes I suffered a lot. When I saw an interview saying that my world fell apart, did not know what to think only non-stop crying, everything was crazy, I felt betrayed, angry! He always said that drug use was legal and not use it. I thought to myself: He lied to me! I was disappointed too. See Nick crying, it hurt not just our soul, but also in the body. After calmly thought about it and saw that I was being too hard on him, after all she is human and as such makes mistakes and who am I to judge and be so angry with someone who brought happiness and unforgettable moments? Prayed to God every day to care for him, not let anything bad happen and that the other four had the strength to get through this difficult time.
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By Viviane Rodrigues
